Moving On

"Taking the first step is the hardest part
When you don't even know where to start."

You handed it to me. I took a step down to get to you. I don't know what that even meant to you, but if I knew now what I didn't know then, would I have taken this venture in the first place?

"I would have stumbled forever in the dark
If I knew I could find your heart."

You didn't come closer. If anything, you backed up, pushed me further away. You say things like, "It's for the best," but if that were true, neither of us would feel like this. Sometimes I just wish I could have gotten an explanation of why you left me calling out in the dark.

"I was trapped there in the silence with everything to lose.
I never got the thing I looked for; the rest of my heart; you."

I should have called back to you, but you moved so quickly. All I have ever wanted was you to hold close, to hold near to my heart, but I could never catch up to someone who doesn't want to be caught.

"What once was love is never again,
I cannot make it in the end."

I stood there, suddenly not feeling anything, no joy, no sorrow, no pain, no relief, no sadness. Numb, shock and awe. I have to learn to get past this. How can I love something that was never there? I dropped whatever it was that you gave me. If love can't keep it with you, how could I remain in your life? The solution was simple.

I am not your Forever.